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Saturday, August 21st, 2010
10:07 am	( Rambling ) (1 infected file | assimilate)
Tuesday, June 29th, 2010
8:19 pm	stupid goats heads J and I drove out to the St. John's River trail today to test out our bike rack, which worked like a champ. My bike is rather obnoxious to mount, I may look into a top tube to make it easier. After about 1.5-2 miles in we went over some gnarly bumps and I had to adjust my saddle, since I have a cheap arse bike. We then realized that I had a bunch of these nasty thorns called "goats heads" stuck in my quickly deflating tires.... So, we had to turn around and head back. We had to stop a few blocks shy of the car and walk the rest of the way. Jim changed out my tubes when we got home.... at which point, both of my tires were totally pancakes and we pulled out about half a dozen goats heads. I think that's the last time we ride *that* trail. (assimilate)
Sunday, June 20th, 2010
8:52 pm	TMI ( Read more... ) Current Mood: frustrated (2 infected files | assimilate)
Tuesday, June 1st, 2010
1:23 am	Do Not Want Anxiety, I has it. (assimilate)
Sunday, May 30th, 2010
2:10 pm	*tap tap tap* Is this thing on? So, yeah, it's been forever since I've posted to LJ. I do read daily, however. I'm just boring and I think people would become very tired of me if my LJ was full of whining. Actually, come to think of it, that's usually the only time I'm motivated to write, is when in a bad mood.... but whatev. In any case, current news is I'll be Dayton bound soon. Trig starts 6/7 ends 7/1, J & I have campsite reservations in Morro Bay 7/5-6 somewhere near around that same time his sister is due to have her baby... after which, we are clear to *drive* to Dayton as early as maybe 7/7. Google maps says from Visalia to Dayton is 37ish hours. I wish I had friends/family in the southwest, because that's a looooooooong way to go without stopping. In other news, I tentatively have a job lined up already. Key word here being tentative. If Jim hasn't found *something* (and not just in his field, we're talking anything where we can afford an apt between the two of us) by mid August, we drive back before school starts at COS, where I have a TA position lined up. Between mid July and mid Aug, however, J and I need a place to stay, so please, if you have a couch, a corner, or a closet to lend, we'd much appreciate it. We have enough saved to support ourselves (barely!), we just can't afford a long term hotel and can't commit to an apartment rental until we're sure we have a steady income. Until next time, LJ! Current Mood: crazy (3 infected files | assimilate)
Wednesday, April 7th, 2010
4:02 pm	( 3 things meme ) (assimilate)
Tuesday, February 2nd, 2010
5:59 pm	Ohio people, please help! I am trying to help find a home for a 13 (ish) y/o Yorkie, Brittany. She is full of terrier spunk, is healthy and energetic for her age. Being an old lady, she does want to be let out frequently, however 'accidents' are uncommon. Brittany does well with other dogs, her temperament with other critters is unknown; small children are too much for her. Due to the small dog/small child snafu her original fam cannot keep her. I really don't want to see Brit end up in a shelter. Please help if you can! (1 infected file | assimilate)
Tuesday, November 3rd, 2009
1:02 pm	I've got the funk ...but neither J nor I feel like dancing, that's for sure. Mild g/i funk, moderate respiratory funk, persistent aches and fatigue that just won't quit, random bouts of dizziness, symptoms that seem to improve and return worse. All signs seem to point to the dreaded Piggies! I've not been one to really buy into the h1n1 histeria, but between my being in school and also living with a school teacher, some bug, swine, bird or otherwise was bound to come through our house eventually. I'm just hoping that my symptoms remain in the home-treatable range. The last thing that I need right now is to have to shell out for a doctor's visit and prescription meds. (assimilate)
Friday, October 30th, 2009
8:13 pm	I did some number crunching today. To maintain an A in 3 of my classes, I need to average anywhere between a 67% and 74% for the remainder of the semester.... So basically, I can finish the semester on cruise control and be pretty safe there. For one class I am uncertain, since there isn't much we have done that has been graded for me to use as a basis. I did set the curve on our first exam, but I'm still waiting for grades on exam 2 and a paper. Even after getting those back, however, I have no clue what we have left to do for the remainder of the term. The syllabus doesn't have dates or even a firm number of exams and assignments, so I'll probably be in the dark until all is pretty much said and done already. I'm pretty sure all I need to do to at least get a B is show up to class and go through the motions, but I'm really hoping to continue carrying a 4.0. (1 infected file | assimilate)
Saturday, August 22nd, 2009
4:52 pm	it's so quiet i can hear my thoughts touching every second ( TL;DR, wandering ) Current Mood: nostalgic (assimilate)
Wednesday, August 5th, 2009
1:36 pm	4.0 ( Booyah! ) (1 infected file | assimilate)
1:39 am	So... I thought once upon a time that I had a facebook page. Apparently I was mistaken, or I completely forgot what email I used. In any case, I have been dragged into using it now.... so, should you be so inclined, here I am: http://www.facebook.com/djmaschinen Yes, that is my full name for those of you who have never known it. And yes, it's totally weird to see that on the interwebs. o.O (6 infected files | assimilate)
Monday, June 29th, 2009
3:01 pm	i think i'm about ready to die started covering paper route last night/this morning. original time expected: 3ish hours. actual time: ~6 hours. We left here ~ 1am, the papers were late. we folded some, then started trying to figure out the crazy directions. Jim was tired and being somewhat arbitrary about wanting to follow the route to the letter, rather than dropping papers at houses we managed to spot while backtracking to find a missed house. there were many u-turns, practically doing donuts, and vertigo from the flash light swinging from the rear view mirror. I'm making him replace the !@#$ing fuse that's causing his interior lights to not work today. tonight he is only allowed to drive and follow my directions to the letter, no fucking second guessing, no repeatedly and arbitrarily going around in circles, no making the process more complicated and stressful than it needs to be. i made it clear in no uncertain terms that we will not have a repeat of last night, he's following my instructions no questions asked and to the letter lest i chop his balls off. he wants me there g to navigate, so i'm going to fucking do it, or he can take me home. my group project was today. since we got in so late/early/whatever i only got a couple hours of sleep. one of my team mates was flakey, as usual, but we got through it. my final is on thursday. i'm looking forward to being finished, but im apprehensive about whether or not i'll have to go in to it exhausted from lack of sleep. aside from me feeling like dookie today, my weekend was pretty good. we're house sitting for jim's parents while they are out of town. privacy is a wonderful, wonderful thing. i'm going to miss it. a lot. they come back today, i'm hoping to be unconscious when they arrive. (assimilate)
Thursday, June 18th, 2009
3:27 am	The neighbor is going on vacation next week and asked Jim to cover his paper delivery for him. He's out with him tonight learning the route... I'm too tired to do anything productive, but I can't seem to manage to fall asleep without my "lemur". :( Current Mood: lonely (assimilate)
Monday, June 15th, 2009
4:20 pm	brain dump It is fairly likely that Jim will driving to Dayton sometime mid-July. I, on the other hand, have class until August, which I can't drop without screwing the financial aid pooch. Tricky tricky. My dad's guest room is available for short term occupation, until we have found an apartment. Marilou has made it pretty clear that she wants the apartment hunt to be nearly settled by the time we get there. So far the options I'm aware of are Ghetto (Meadow) Run and Peppertree Villas near WSU. I'm not entirely too excited about these options, because though they are easily within walking distance of campus, with that proximity to campus also comes noise from students, beat up apartments and questionable management. There's a significantly nicer (and thus pricier) complex called The Enclave between campus and the mall. It's close enough to bike from, though likely a pretty freaking scary walk considering the lack of sidewalks, heavy traffic and from the look of the map, anyway, having to cross 675. The last near campus option is maybe bagging one of the vacant town houses in Sycamore Creek. Considering those aren't strictly rentals, hopefully the noisy student problem will be slightly less of an issue. Another consideration is possibly the Greene area. It's pretty central between campus and where Jim will be working (Miamisburg/Centerville area), so fairly convenient for both of us via 675. We will only have 1 car when we get out there though; getting to campus could be a bit of a hassle, but workable. Unfortunately, I don't know that neighborhood very well, so scouting is definitely in order. So far info that I've been able to find via the interwebs has been dicey at best. Should anyone happen to notice rental signs with phone numbers while cruising that area, please to be feeling free to jot down info for meh! ^_^ Once we have the rental situation figured out, our next hurdle is furniture. As in... we won't have any, at all. We're only bringing as much as we can stuff in his Corolla and in the event that I end up flying, my luggage. I'm guessing we'll be spending our first few weeks on the floor, since I'm pretty sure my old bed is trashed from being exposed to the elements in storage. (10 infected files | assimilate)
Sunday, June 14th, 2009
4:35 pm	the sucking void As is the folk knowledge of many of the Gem City's locals, Dayton is pretty much a sucking void. Once someone has lived in Dayton, there is an uncanny certainty of being sucked back in sooner or later. "You'll be back. They all come back," rings entirely too true. Well, it looks pretty likely that Jim and I will be moving to Dayton before the end of the summer. The economy here on the left coast is fantastically depressed, as it is pretty much everywhere. With the layoffs in Silicon Valley, and a very small pool of available jobs at all in the IT industry, now is a pretty damn crappy time to be a computer scientist trying to get in on the ground floor. Hmm lets see, recent grad, or someone with years of high level experience, competing for the same jobs? Fortunately for Jim, he has a fabulous girlfriend, with a brother that happens to be a project manager at a data engineering firm in D-town. Said brother has the funding for a 6 month pee-on contract (paid internship), with the possibility of a regular, full time position should Jim manage to not fuck up. This offer has been on the table for a while, and has been Plan B for some time. Armando has his funding for the summer, so Jim pretty much has to shit or get off the pot at this point. In light of my getting railroaded by an unethical boss at the SPCA (she decided a friend of hers needed my job more than I did), the endless red tape and road blocks in trying to deal with transferring to the local schools, and well, California being pretty devoid of job opportunities... that internship is looking mighty sexy. I can finish off my degree without BS (bullshit, not bachelor's... though they are much the same) incompatible requirements and endless bureaucratic headaches. While I'm working on that, he gets experience, something to put on his resume, strong references and likely a permanent position. Oh, and said internship is enough to live modestly, but comfortably on in Dayton -- as opposed to the same type of job he *might* find in LA or SF if he's lucky, not even taking into account the competition, and still not be able to afford a parking space, much less an apartment. If push comes to shove and Armando for some reason doesn't have a position for Jim after his contract is up, there are always at least *some* opportunities in Dayton - even if it's making $10/hr doing help desk. At this point, we don't have a whole lot in savings left between us, and I sure as hell don't want to live with his parents indefinitely sitting on pie in the sky hopes of finding tenable work out here. Jim, naturally, is apprehensive as all hell. Unlike me, he has a very supportive family and a very good relationship with them. Moving across the country is a hard pill to swallow. I, of course, am not exactly thrilled with the prospect of moving back to Dayton either. Bureaucracy not withstanding, I could go to school cheaper and graduate sooner out here. I've not been away from Dayton for even two years yet -- going back wasn't exactly on the agenda. Then again, the grass is always greener on the other side. In the valley's case, said grass is either on constant life support or on fire... so that isn't grass I'll much miss anyway. :) I'm willing to suck it up and live in Dayton for a couple years while I finish school, and he gains valuable work experience. Hopefully sometime between now and then the economy will have improved and we can move to somewhere we actually want to be. (1 infected file | assimilate)
Friday, June 12th, 2009
12:34 am	tick tock of the bio clock Sometimes I wonder if I might want to have kids "some day"™... and then Jim has low blood sugar, and I'm faced with how incredibly difficult it is to be responsible for the well being of someone that is pretty much helpless on their own. I can't imagine doing that full time. o.O Then again, small people do eventually get more self-sufficient, rather than have random and fantastically stressful bouts of debilitation. I think I'll stick with diabetic boyfriends and pets for a good long while, in any case. (assimilate)
Saturday, May 23rd, 2009
10:27 am	Writer's Block: There Can Be Only One Do you believe in monogamy? View 506 Answers Do I believe in monogamy? Sure, it's not exactly a unicorn. Pair bonding does exist, and it *can* work in a lasting way for many couples. Do I believe that monogamy is something that's inherently natural to our species? Hells no. That doesn't mean it's not attainable, or in many cases even ideal.... there's just a lot of work to be done. :) Same for poly relationships, though.... they can work... with some work. I think it really mostly boils down to whatever people that are involved in whatever kind of relationship they have really being honest with themselves - and each other. (assimilate)
Monday, April 13th, 2009
10:35 pm	Day 1 of 12+ hour work day and no end in sight. I'm going to go die now k thx. (assimilate)
Saturday, April 11th, 2009
5:02 pm	A Life? What's that? I got the job. Yay! Well, mostly. It pays peanuts.... like, barely above min wage kind of peanuts. At this point, however, I am happy to be employed. I shall now be buying copious amounts of Monster as my schedule is "8:15AM - whenever we let you go" Mon-Sat. (2 infected files | assimilate)
Wednesday, April 1st, 2009
1:45 pm	Juju needed! I interviewed for a front office position with the SPCA today, please to be sending good "hire me!" ju ju my way k thx! I'm under the impression that I nailed the interview pretty well, and the women I spoke with were very interested in my IT background. I'm hoping my ability to be both an office monkey *and* the IT dept will land me the job. I'm not entirely too concerned about salary, I'll just be happy to have a job! Current Mood: hopeful (2 infected files | assimilate)
Sunday, December 21st, 2008
12:03 am	Your rainbow is strongly shaded black and indigo.               What is says about you: You are a powerful person. You appreciate cities, technology, and other great things people have created. You may meet people who are afraid of you. Friends count on you for being honest and insightful. Find the colors of your rainbow at spacefem.com. (assimilate)
Thursday, October 23rd, 2008
9:03 pm	Fly out of LAX tomorrow morning. Save for the laptop, I think I'm all packed... There is, of course, that nagging sensation in the back of my head that says "I must be forgetting something vitally important." Jim and I both have taken a couple "pink pills" (benadryl apparently is the exact same ingredients as OTC sleep aids) in an attempt to get to sleep early... since we need to be up at 4am. I am not looking forward to this, or the whole losing three hours thing and subsequent jet lag. Ah, the joys of travel. Barring inclement weather or delays (delta has changed the details of our itinerary twice since we booked it), we'll be in Dayton at about 6pm eastern. At which point, we will pick up our rental car, drive to my dad's, eat dinner, and promptly pass the fuck out. Saturday, I suspect a trip to Foy's since neither of us have a costume plan. I see fake blood and white shirts from the good will in our future, perhaps. I'm looking forward to seeing a good few of you at D&B's party. The rest of you... call meh! Most of my week is open, and I have plans for subjecting Jim to King's Island on the 1st. Current Mood: exanimate (2 infected files | assimilate)
Wednesday, October 8th, 2008
11:23 pm	So, iammachine, your LiveJournal reveals... You are... 8% unique (blame, for example, your interest in stompy dance of doom) and 13% herdlike (partly because you, like everyone else, enjoy writing). When it comes to friends you are popular. In terms of the way you relate to people, you are wary of trusting strangers. Your writing style (based on a recent public entry) is conventional. Your overall weirdness is: 28 (The average level of weirdness is: 29. You are weirder than 62% of other LJers.) Find out what your weirdness level is! (assimilate)
Saturday, September 13th, 2008
3:21 am	the sky must be falling OMG, can it be? Isis actually making a post on LJ? I haven't written on here in just about forever, though I've been reading my flist fairly diligently. It seems I never really seem to post unless I am in need of a brain dump. I suppose that is just as well. It is my LJ, afterall, and I doubt it gets much traffic so it's probably fairly safe to bitch into the nether. I wish I had the inclination to post more often, but aside from maybe gushing about Jim, which I am more inclined to keep private, I wouldn't have much to write about. My life is pretty boring. I wake up, I do whatever I do to pass the time, and by the time night rolls around... I usually can't sleep. This would be one such night. Normally I'd be watching late night HGTV shows or some such, but I'm visiting in Visalia at the moment. J's parents have satellite... which is tuned into eastern time. Nothing but infomercials. I'm too tired to attempt to do anything productive, yet too brain funky to sleep, so here I am on the interwebs. Jim and I moved from the Fresno area to the San Bernardino area roughly a month ago, which is yet another temporary situation. I'm really looking forward to putting down roots somewhere finally, whenever and wherever that might be. J has been gunning for a public sector CS/IT job, but given the state's budget problems, that may be a long shot. I've been encouraging to look more aggressively at corporate sector, but he's been feeling a little bit lost on the resume front. I'm hoping he gets a bite soon. In the meantime, I've applied to attend CSU San Bernardino. If I'm going to be able to register for the winter quarter in January when I have residency, there's several hoops I'll need to jump through. I need to drum up childhood immunization records, have transcripts sent and figure out just how much I'm going to be bent over as far as transfers go. On the up side, I'll probably be sharing the commute to campus with J's sister. I'm feeling a little homesick. I can't really think of anything in particular to miss, aside from my friends, of course. I'm just feeling a little lonely and unfamiliar here. The extent of my social life here still consists primarily of J's family, which is a little strange for me. I have mixed emotions about whether or not I'm really all that interested in the "scene" down here. My patience for bar politics has definitely waned tremendously, but I can't help but feel restless. I really want to get out and *do* something, and I miss the music. It's a little difficult to get up the motivation to go out when I know J would pretty much just be going along for my sake. He's a little bit anxious about how long his savings will last since as well, which doesn't make matters any easier when we have other plans on the horizon. I'm hoping to catch up with a good friend of mine in San Francisco on the weekend of 10/10, then J and I will be in Dayton from 10/24-11/1. I'm actually looking forward to seeing my family, save for my mother. I want nothing to do with her, and I hope that the rest of my family will respect that and not try to pressure me into seeing her. On a happier note, my eldest brother's second child was born in August, so I'm looking very forward to meeting my nephew, who was interestingly enough named after me. That came as a huge surprise. My brain isn't working well enough at this point to put a coherent thought together, so I'm going to stop here and stick with listening to music. (11 infected files | assimilate)
Tuesday, February 12th, 2008
2:27 pm	Warning: Girly Business ( TMI ) (8 infected files | assimilate)
Wednesday, December 26th, 2007
2:19 pm	Good bye, Ohio. (9 infected files | assimilate)
Wednesday, October 17th, 2007
11:25 pm	New Phone - Comments Screened I am now the proud owner of a Razr V3xx. Okay, maybe not all that proud, I wanted the V9. In any case, I need contact into to put into said new phone, so hit me, baby! (assimilate)
Thursday, September 27th, 2007
5:25 am	which major arcana of the thoth tarot deck are you? short, with pictures and detailed results DEVIL/PAN"the joker, worker, stabilizer"You are gifted when it comes to protecting yourself from judgements cast upon you by others. In fact, you are not easily thrown by external reality. You have the capacity to work and play hard and to laugh at yourself. This is the card of humour and sexuality (it is the only card with genital symbols). "Devil" spelled backwards is "lived", and it is very fitting. You live with humour and have a stable foothold on life. Of course, you do love setting the occasional bit of mischief into play. Take this quiz! Quizilla | Join | Make A Quiz | More Quizzes | Grab Code (assimilate)
Wednesday, September 12th, 2007
6:43 pm	stolen from people Concert Meme Here is how it works. Copy this list. Leave in the bands you've seen perform live. Delete the ones you haven't and add new ones that you have seen until you reach 25. An asterisk means the previous person had it on their list. Two asterisks means the last two people who did this before you had that band on their list. 1. Alien Sex Fiend 2. Combichrist**** 3. Praga Khan 4. Thrill Kill Kult*** 5. KMFDM*** 6. Bella Morte***** 7. Love and Rockets 8. Hate Dept 9. The Azoic** 10. The Cure** 11. AntiFlag 12. Rancid* 13. The Buzzcocks 14. Nine Inch Nails* 15. Stabbing Westward** 16. Front Line Assembly** 17. Switchblade Symphony** 18. Gravity Kills** 19. VNV Nation 20. Seraphim Shock* 21. Rotersand 22. Switchblade Symphony 23. Icon of Coil** 24. Covenant 25. Meg Lee Chin* (assimilate)
6:27 pm	Another Fucking Opportunity for Growth I'm suffering from a bruised ego. Life could be worse, but damn this feeling sucks. I am not a terribly competitive person when it comes to matters of attention, I'm very take it or leave it. I may like you, but I don't need you, thanks. All the same, I'm not much of a fan of coming in second, either. I have no desire to possessively gobble up all of someone's interpersonal resources (time, energy, attention), but I'll be damned if I have to sacrifice my own interests in the process. I can share, but I'm not a saint. It burns me that someone else's feelings seem very important, yet in the process, where are my feelings being taken into account? What about my comfort? What about expectations that I had been given? Gone. Dust. Forfeit. Secondary, at best. I have some rather naive ideas about what's fair. I'm hurt, and I feel like screaming that it's not fair. But it's not so simple as wrong or right; no matter what, it's not fair. On the one hand, there were plans standing on wobbly knees, that weren't entirely confirmed, but have been in the works (and already pushed back a time or two prior...) for quite some time. I had been coming to question whether it was going to happen. On the other hand, there was another person, that wanted to make their own plans - that were in conflict with the ones standing. This person was upset that the standing plans were even an issue, since they were with a less tangible person. Between a rock and a hard place. The answer for me, is simple. Not because of personal interest (I'm the former person), but because of my sense of justice. When faced with difficult decisions, being a logic monkey is damn handy. Well, I had this agreement first, I'll honor that. There may be conflict, but it's a logical decision, and one I think any reasonable person could come to understand and accept. Well, I'm faced with having to understand and accept, that the one faced with the difficult decision, didn't decide in my favor. My question was answered, and at this point, I don't think it's going to happen. Should the other person involved decide they want to reschedule, I am not particularly inclined to accomodate. I'm not so keen on investing into question marks. At this point, I'm hurt. I'm upset. I want to scream at the top of my lungs, that it's just not fair. But that doesn't change a thing, and doesn't make anything any better. Being angry won't hurt anyone but myself. Pointing fingers is.... pointless. In the words of a horrible waiter, but great philosopher, "It is what it is." I'd like to think that I am a fairly secure person. I suppose, I am secure enough to know that I have my insecurities. It really sucks when what I feel I deserve, or in a more simplistic way, "is right", doesn't match up with the reality of a situation. My ego is bruised. My trust is fragile, and my confidence shaken. Not so much any confidence in myself. I'm rather confident, that life goes on, and this is just another fucking opportunity for growth. But since I really have no reason to mistrust this person at the core, I suppose my confidence in them is just... tarnished. I'm frustrated. I'm at my wit's end. Patience has never been my strongest suit, and I've just about run out of it. I made it a point to make sure I had the time to go see this person, and now it's time wasted. However small the investment, an absence of a return on it is still aggravating. They had made mention of not wanting to ruin my weekend by giving me time to make other plans. I appreciate the thought, but the root of the matter is still the same, and it's a bust. Weekend ruined. On the other hand, it does relieve some stress. I can spend that time working, saving money for decidedly more certain and fruitful endeavors - like Folsom weekend. There's no questions looming over my head, that is happening, and that is happening with people I am sure about, people I know and love, that are stable in my life and uncompromising in their consideration. That also means I don't need to cram the entire month of homework into this coming week, I can pace myself a little more. So there is a silver lining.... ...on a very black cloud. Yay, growth. (assimilate)
Sunday, August 26th, 2007
1:05 pm	I'm sicker than I was a few days ago. I started a new job this part Thursday, at a rather nice Japanese bistro... I think running around like a bat out of hell for three days straight, two of those being double shifts might have something to do with it. I'm off until Wednesday, hurray! Sometime between now and then I need to get down to campus and break some knees. For now, I sit and wallow and cough a lot, and wish I had miso soup at home. I'm really really glad I don't really have to do anything -today-. I think whatever plague I have is now developing into an ear infection, because I've got some killer vertigo and it feels like someone is stabbing my left ear with a letter opener, and I can't hear out of it so well. Yay. Send me soup. Current Mood: sick (1 infected file | assimilate)
Wednesday, August 22nd, 2007
2:06 pm	will i ever find the answers to the things i dare not ask ( Gimme gimme what I need Gimme gimme what I feel Gimme gimme what I want 6 nights of love bizarre ) (4 infected files | assimilate)
Sunday, July 29th, 2007
8:17 pm	This is how we turn a Molehill into a Mountain Why is it that whenever I've made what I think is a solid decision, that I get smacked by a cosmic curveball and I'm forced to very likely have my words served to me with ketchup? Mmmm, convictions are tasty! I overthink, a lot. I am an ENTJ, after all. I receive some form of input or stimulus, and I've just got to come to a conclusion on it. It's worse when the stimulus happens to be a feeling. Unlike the outside world, desires don't have to be rational, or have a conclusion. Indeed, desires rarely are rational at all, as is the nature of the beast infatuation. Hit the deck, boys, Isis's heart does beat. Bugger all if I know what to do with it, or about it, except "wait and see." I'm forced between a rock and a hard place, as my mind plays out the destinations of all the possible paths before me. My brain keeps struggling for an end point that just isn't there, nor should it be. It's too early in the game. There is a saying "don't put the cart before the horse." But damn is that horse pushy! I have a new job to hopefully start very soon, hoops to jump through for school, and plans for a weekend trip to hammer out for the end of August. I'll be missing FetishCon, I will still be getting my nerd on at GenCon, and missing GLLA in favor of the pursuit of satiating my curiousity about a totally awesome dood that has rather floored yours truly. Yeah, me, go figure. I didn't get the moniker iammachine for no reason, dear reader. My instincts are worrying me a little. Not in a "Danger! Will Robinson!" kind of way, but in the utter lack of the typical warning signs that make me put on the breaks. What seems to be too good to be true, generally is, and that's the clincher here. Not that anything is too good to be true, no, quite the opposite. There are flaws that make everything all too real. Reality can be pretty scary, even when that reality might be pretty fabulous. Because of course, no matter how fabulous a path might be, in reality, there are obstacles. Is the risk worth the reward? Risks and rewards aside, are you willing to work for it? Right now, my proverbial Magic 8 Ball says "All Signs Point to Yes"... or at least, no signs point to "no". So... what then? What happens if those nagging instincts are confirmed? Damn I wish that horse would stop pushing my cart around. (1 infected file | assimilate)
Friday, July 27th, 2007
5:07 pm	Sursies Rule the World!!! Have you ever had a moment where you realized you found something absolutely fantastic, and you didn't even know you were looking for it? It's kind of like being a kid, when christmas still held some magic over you; you take the wrapping off of a present to find that you got the coolest toy EVER and you never even imagined that this toy was anywhere in the realm of probability... but probably with much smaller words, because you were five years old, after all. :) In this case, however, you know all the big words and you didn't even have the time to postulate about what might be under the wrapping. It's just like *WHACK!* "Hi! I'm here to make your day, and rock the world!" Maybe it's more like finding twenty dollars in the pocket of your coat that's been hiding in the back of your hall closet since last winter. Or the Two Knotty Boys book showing up on my door the other day. However you wanna call it, it's just BAMF, my friend, BAMF! PS: X's and O's to he who rocks the tuckins, and has made my last few days quite smiley. :) (assimilate)
Wednesday, June 6th, 2007
1:54 am	hey teacher, leave those kids alone! I am now officially a free woman. I have NO immediate deadlines, NO programs to write, NO exams, NO labs, NOTHING of immediate importance to do with school on the direct horizon. It feels good. Real good. Granted, I DO need to make an appointment to see my advisor, change my major, get financial aid and registration squared away for the fall: but I'm FREE! FREE I TELL YOU!!! That is all. I'm going to go collapse now. (1 infected file | assimilate)
Tuesday, May 22nd, 2007
12:30 pm	I'm not quite sure which is worse: the pain from the dental, or the vertigo from the drugs to relieve said pain. (2 infected files | assimilate)
Sunday, April 29th, 2007
12:18 pm	( Shame ) (1 infected file | assimilate)
Friday, April 27th, 2007
12:39 pm	My Daemon ( What do you think? ) (5 infected files | assimilate)
Thursday, April 19th, 2007
4:56 pm	*happy dance* I got an A on my Trig exam!!!!! (2 infected files | assimilate)